December 2007

I watched The Lord of the Rings movies this past weekend. I have never been so affected by a movie. It’s insane. I read the books a couple years back, and enjoyed them, but seeing them on screen (and in a much shorter period of time) moved me so much more – I have never cried so much during a movie as I did while watching those!

From the first movie, this is what meant the most to me.


Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.

Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world Frodo, besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the Ring. In which case, you were also meant to have it. And that is an encouraging thought.


It is so true. “All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

I hope when I have “passed from the world to the white shores of the next”, I can look back and see a life to be satisfied with. It becomes so hard, when you look at it with that sort of perspective. So difficult to remain on course. We are all fighting a battle. Part of it is the same battle that Gollum fought. Fighting against yourself – our flesh, our desire to do wrong (or just not do right!). “For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want.”

Of course there is the bigger battle, the ultimate battle of good vs evil, but sometimes that seems so much larger than any of us…

But who thinks of things like this when there is school to get done? *sighs*.

Until later,


I’ve been thinking lately about not wasting life, and the ways to not waste it. Now, I can’t claim I am succeeding in this area yet, but thinking about it has got to be a good start, right? :/ Anyways, the thought that has most convinced/convicted me in this area is election. And no, I’m not talking about the Presidential kind. Election as in the Predestination/Calvinism kind. Not that I’m an expert in theology, but think about it with me for a minute. Before time began, God choose some. He choose me. And (if you happen to be born again) He choose you. If that doesn’t:
1. Give you a purpose in life
2. Scare the heck out of you (literally)
then nothing ever will. Out of all the beautiful, successful, intelligent people, He choose me. And why would He do that? I mean, if I were God (and you can all thank Him that I’m not!) I would’ve chosen those first, and then possibly a few normal people like myself – but still! Why would He do it?
I think of David. A shepherd boy. Insignificant.
Mary. A common girl about my age – nothing special about her.
Amos. Another shepherd.
Gideon – from the smallest tribe.
Jeremiah? He was young.
Moses? He couldn’t talk.
Some if not all the disciples were in their teens. And uneducated – fishermen, learning their father’s trade instead of being under a Rabbi.
And sure, there were people like Abraham and Lot who were rich and prosperous. Or Solomon, the King and the wisest on Earth. But so many of His chosen people are the weak, the poor, then uneducated, the homely, the unpopular. Why? Perhaps it shows His glory all the more to take the least expected and turn them into the most productive. Perhaps it keeps us humble that there is no way that we could do anything great outside of God’s power. Or maybe that’s just His will. Because He loves us.
And that’s where we come to our huge responsibility. Only thank goodness the weight doesn’t completely fall on our shoulders. But since He has picked me, He has a purpose for me. And I need to be fulfilling that purpose! If I’m not, then what good is it to even be living? However, we can’t take that burden on ourselves – I know what happens when I try to do things on my own.
Disaster. :)
But am I being his channel?
Just something to think about.

Here I am. What have I gotten myself into? I’ve created a blog. Horrors. Now millions of people will be able to read my deluded ramblings. Okay, thousands? Hundreds? A couple. Fine. :)

So, I am

-17 years old

-a very normal person. I have average intelligence, average weight, height, etc…

-addicted to certain foods. Such as chocolate. White Cheddar Cheez-Itz. Coffee. Yes I realize coffee isn’t a food. Moving on.

-a writer. I love writing. But I don’t write nearly as often as I should. HOWEVER. I do enjoy it immensely.

-a HORRIBLE speller. Enough said. Thank God for SpellCheck

-astoundingly bad at Math.

-a person who adores to read. Mostly fiction, but I like some non-fiction too.

-excited about knowing more and more about God, and having a personal relationship with Him.

-not always as put together as this first post seems. HAH! I tend to be forgetful, absent minded, unclear, etc. It’s just easier for me to arrange my thoughts when I’m writing. I am almost NEVER like this if you talk to me face-to-face.

-musically consumed. I sing constantly (whether I have a good voice or not is debatable). I like almost every genre of music…excluding most rap, screamo, punk, and polka. :)

Well, that’s a summary of me. Although there’s much more hidden away, and I haven’t touched on many of my negative points. :)