September 2008

Oh my. Babysitting Kaylin for a few days. I was hoping she would be good, and have fun, and cooperate, but it’s proving to be a bigger challenge than I thought. School went pretty well for her, but now that I need to do MY school, she just wants to play. Says she’s bored…not having any fun.

I told her that we were going to have fun, and we will!! But I need a little bit of time for school, and a little bit of time to myself! ahh! I’m just trying to get her to not think that just because Mom and Dad are gone, she can watch tons of movies, play, and do new things…although we will do those things…

Anyways. Guess I need a new strategy! :]



Well I had this brilliant idea (if I do say so myself) about documenting the Oktoberfest this year. However, I completely forgot about doing it. So. I’m going to estimate. Let’s pretend these are all actual statistics ;]

laws broken 1 (but it was accidental mom, no worries! :P)

parents saying the beanbag toss was easy and not getting any through the holes 2

groups of preteen boys duking it out to get the high score in basketball 3

headaches endured 5

people I double-taked thinking they were someone else 10

water bottles consumed 20

balloons sailed into the air (this is not an exaggeration!) 50

man hours 75

Christian surveys were taken 100

calls of “hey do you want to play?” 350

tracts given away 1,000

beanbags were thrown 1,500

beanbags were picked up (I swear this must be true!!!) 2,500

pieces of Tootsie Rolls and Bubble gum were given away 3000

A festival full of people, now with a seeds planted in their souls? Priceless

It was a great year. Exhausting, but great. It helped to have the experience of last year to know what works and what doesn’t! Looking forward to doing it next year…if I’m around! Yikes! Senior year brings a lot of “lasts”.


I haven’t been updating lately because it would require thought that I don’t have room in my brain for :]

I love my life. Most of the time. Sometimes it seems too difficult, too complicated. I know Jesus says that His “yoke is easy, burden is light,” but it seems that it applies only if you’re doing exactly what He asks of you. The superficial part of me, the part that still tugs me to do the wrong thing, complicates it all I suppose. Though of course, He promises trials. Or am I just being chastised for my own *wrong-doing*? Everything seems complicated and confusing sometimes.

But the strange thing is, good things have been happening lately! It’s just that it seems like the bad things that have also happened, overshadow the good. Or perhaps it’s just my perception?

In any case, I’ve been thinking a lot lately, and the thoughts I’ve had are ones that I really don’t want to be documented…so I haven’t been blogging :] Sorry about that!

I think it might have something to do with getting a good night’s sleep last night…but it feels like everything is right with the world right now.

I love these days.

The days when your hair cooperates.

You feel pretty in your outfit.

Friends come up to YOU instead of you going up to them.

Something unexpected – and good! – happens.

You feel satisfied in the work you’ve accomplished.

God seems close enough to touch.

Exciting days lay ahead.

…your ears finally pop…


I really really really appreciate being able to hear!! :]


Yeah, I know. But there’s a reason why! I FINALLY started writing fiction again yesterday (yay :] ) and so I was a bit tired of typing and…well, THINKING.

So that’s the big news. And now that I’ve gotten back into it…I love it :] Thank goodness. I was afraid it would just be drudgery.

There is something that I always have to be fighting though – and this is true in pretty much every area of my life. I never want to sit down and start. There’s this overwhelming feeling that I don’t want to do it, even though I know, and have experienced, that when I start – I enjoy it! So I’m a bit frustrated with that, but I’ll just fight through it till my brain gets the message that this is FUN! hah

Brisingr comes out in 2 days, 12 hours, and 10 minutes! ahhhh!! Yay! I feel bad though, it’s been a year since I read Eldest, and I’ve kind of forgotten about some of it. I mean, I remember, but I’m just sure there’s something I’m forgetting…but there’s no way there will be books left to buy OR get from the library the soon to the release of #3. Ahh well.

Mmk. Enough for today :) I want to save myself for the REAL stuff. haha


(…sorry this is so long…)

A mosaic of clouds blanketed the stars from our view for the first hour of this chilly night, but the moon peeked out through the cracks as a tantalizing appetizer. Then, a half hour before we left, it was like God rolled up the carpet of Heaven, and let us get a glimpse at his awesome handiwork.

I was listening to a song today, by Shawn McDonald, called “Beautiful”. I wish I had thought of it when we were sitting, huddled happily around the campfire two hours ago, but it still whispers something to me now:

As I look into the stars
Pondering how far away they are
How You hold them in Your hands
And still You know this man
You know my inner most being, oh
Even better than I know, than I know myself

What a beautiful God
What a beautiful God
And what am I, that I might be called Your child
What am I, what am I
That You might know me, my King
What am I, what am I, what am I

As I look off into the distance
Watching the sun roll on by
Beautiful colors all around me, oh
Painted all over the sky
The same hands that created all of this
They created you and I

What a beautiful God
What a beautiful God
And what am I, that I might be called Your child
What am I, what am I
That You might know me, my King
What am I, what am I
That You might die, that I might live
What am I


Isn’t that just…well…sorry, beautiful?

But if you’re wondering what the title of this blog means, it’s about the devotion that Joey (a college student, and my best friend’s older brother) gave after we sang worship songs. To sum it up, it was about the verse that says “‘I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were cold or hot.” Saying that God would rather us be spiritually cold than lukewarm. Which makes a lot of sense really – those who are cold are not misrepresenting God – they are scorning Him, but not claiming to believe in Him and then reflecting poorly on His name.

So he challenged us, saying (basically) “It’s not about what you’re NOT doing, it’s about what you’re doing. So you may not drink, cuss, sleep around – sure those are things we aren’t supposed to be doing, but what are you doing for God? Are you seeking Him? Are you growing? Witnessing? Serving?”

He also gave a story about a stranger finding a beautiful jungle garden, and, awed by it’s beauty, knocks on the door of the house in the center of the garden. A servant answers and says that the owner of the garden is not here. The servant says “I am tending to the garden while he is away.”

Joey finished that illustration saying, “How does your garden look?”

I for one know that I’ve been holding back. Clinging to the things that I hold dear – entertainment…laziness…lack of self-control…disobedience. I’ve been trapped in the easily deceiving “Well everyone else does it” philosophy.

I want to surrender FULLY to God.

No matter the cost.

Because it does cost…

But I just know it’s worth it.


I got my laptop back! YES! The funny thing is, they gave me the malfunctioning keyboard as a souvenir :P. That’s hilarious! It’s like it had surgery or something…

And I got past my writer’s block…or at least phycologically. I haven’t exactly started the story yet. :]

Something random about me: I always get my *ideas* at night, and they always seem SO AMAZING then…but I’ll wake up in the morning and go “what was I THINKING?!?” They’ll be utterly ridiculous in the daytime! It’s as if they morph overnight, mulling in my head, spoiling like milk in the sunshine.



Just wondered if that happens to anyone else…


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