March 2009

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

…or as we know it in my house, happy birthday, Mom :]

I’m exhausted.

My sister got engaged last weekend!! AHHHH I’m so excited about that!! They’re thinking about a fall wedding.

AHH giant face-palm, i just realized i didn’t do the dishes today. sigh. fail.

Plus the fact that i ate cake AND cheesecake…in abundance, haha.

It was GORGEOUS out today, about 80, and I tried to tan (I can hear your muffled laughter.) I think it’s time I embraced my paleness, haha.

Things just seems pretty crazy now a days. I’m being confronted with some specific responsibility issues. It’s humbling. Sigh. Just so long as I GROW, I’ll be fine with these things. Do you know what I mean?

ok enough rambling.



I went to see Annie Get Your Gun yesterday, put on by a local college, performed at my church – it was great :]

It’s scary to see those people and not feel like they’re decades older than me. It was an interesting experience.

Hahha, added to that, has anyone else noticed that it’s REALLY awkward to sit close to the stage? I don’t know why, but I feel like a stalker or something, and every once in awhile you’ll actually make eye-contact, which is…weird.

OH my goodness, so this is probably one of those things that’s funnier when you’re there, but two friends of mine and I were talking right outside the church a good while after the play, discussing the horribleness of really dark, really fake spray tans. Right at the point when I said (very loudly, I might add) “I KNOW it’s SO DISGUSTING!” …right when a guy from the play walked out, causing me to look him SQUARE in the eye while I made that comment, as the movement drew my gaze away from the people I was conversing with. What made this even funnier (and more embarrassing) the guy was wearing one of those gross metro LOW v-neck shirts, and had on LOADS of stage makeup…I….DIED laughing. It wasn’t JUST because I had horribly looked him in the I and (basically) said he was disgusting, but also because…well…it was true. And I’m not being terribly mean here, I mean, he was really cute – he just looked disgusting.

Oh my. Ok. That’s not nearly as funny as it seemed at the time.

But oh well.

I just wanted to record it here, haha.


Certain people annoy the heck out of me.

Certain people also intrigue me.

Certain people have figured out my game.

Certain people have their own game…s.

Certain people can’t be ignored.

Certain people keep me guessing.

Certain people are sweet.

Certain people are…crass [in the nicest way possible of course].

Certain people just don’t have a clue.


P.S. Certain People is singular.

To glorify God by enjoying him forever.

Oh Lord don’t let me forget that…


I got a solo!! WHEEEE!!!! :D

Just thought I’d document that fact :]

And it’s the last song, too, which is SO powerful, so that’s awesome!

Ahhh I’m so glad I don’t have to wait anymore to find out, lol, it was stressing me out!


Just had a marvelous talk with mi madre, who is most definitely the most amazing person in the entire world.

She gives me hope…hey, if I came from her, there’s got to be SOME of her in me, lol.

Anyhoo, I’m just encouraged that God uses ridiculously sinful people for his purposes. I’ve done so many horrible things, but that doesn’t mean he can’t use me.

I’m sure you all know all about this, but I just love it when something you’ve known for your entire life becomes REAL to you :]

God is so good! It may seem trite, but it is SO TRUE!


Today I did something I would have told you a few years ago that I would NEVER. EVER. Do in my ENTIRE life.

I swore.

I mean literally cussed because something went wrong…and in presence of my friends. Oh no no no no no….to make matters worse, pastor preached this morning on having a good testimony. Fail fail fail fail… I’m giving this some thought. And I’m going to show the process of how it happened.

1. I watched/listened to media that used obscenities

2. I became desensitized to the profanity

3. I forgot why it was wrong

4. I began to *think* it, and then rationalize why that was alright

5. I began to let it slip out when I knew I was alone and no one would hear it

6. I accidentally said it

Oh such simple, simple acts…I’ve noticed this slow backslide in many areas of my life. One in particular (shockingly not this one!) smacked me in the face this morning, and with God’s help (and your prayers?) I’m going to start climbing UP the slippery slope. Oh dear.

Ephesians 4:29 “Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.” First Peter 3:10 declares, “For, whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech.” James 3:9-12 summarizes the issue: “With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God’s likeness. Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.”

Just to prove to you (and myself, actually) that the Bible DOES have something to say on this.

Side note: Savior auditions were today…I’m kinda nervous about if I’ll get a part. Sigh.

‘nother side note. Ok, just going to vent for a second. Just a second. Why do people think it’s ok to be mean to someone and then call it teasing?! I’m not talking about the regular teasing among friends, I’m talking about “I-would-never-be-saying-this-if-everyone-weren’t-laughing” junk. Enough is enough. I don’t care if people act like it doesn’t bother them. Sooner or later you’re going to touch a nerve – you’ll never know, but it’ll hurt them. Do you really want to live with that? (*side note on the side note…I really hate myself when I don’t stick up for the people being teased*)


Sigh. I’m done now.