August 2010

It’s not like I’m going to stop blogging once August is over…so why do I feel a little sad about BEDA finishing?

Right now, I haven’t even gotten out of bed yet — it’s about 8:30…which is much better than yesterday…when I didn’t get up till 10:30….yeah…

Tonight I have a piano lesson, and I wish I felt more prepared. The way these lessons work, there’s not just a few piano pieces I practice and then play for her, it’s a work in progress. I like to feel like I’m achieving something, so this is a little frustrating for me. Plus, I want to know that I did what I was supposed to. I feel like I practiced a lot, but what if it’s not as much as I need to in order to achieve my goal? I have no way to gauge it.


I have been practicing piano chords for approximately an hour and I can hardly see straight. To reiterate what I was saying before, it kills me to have so many things to tackle that none of them can be completed in a set amount of time (in this case, one week). So now I sit, banging my head against my keyboard because I CANNOT for the LIFE of me complete the A-flat through B root chords and their inversions without messing up, and I’ve ended up completely ignoring the major and minor sevenths.

*dramatic sigh*

This must be remedied. I’ve got to figure out a way to either change the way my brain works, or figure out a way to set achievable goals so that my brain is happy.


Just got back from running errands and signing up for a debit card! Yay! It comes in the mail in about 2 weeks. I’M EXCITED. I’ve been meaning to get one for QUITE awhile now, and it feels like the next right step in my “adult banking experience”. haha.


Fashion: A social phenomenon in which random people create new ways of putting fabric together to make clothes and pay attractive people model them, resulting in the lay people desiring and buying said clothes.


Well, I guess this is goodbye for now. I’ll probably take a little hiatus from blogging so I don’t burn out. Haha.

Until. (Robin Jones Gunn! :) )


Second to last day of BEDA. Hmm. I can’t decide if I’m going to miss it or not.

Today has been productive, even though I slept in quite a bit. I had a monstrous to-do list, and have gotten almost everything done!

Tonight I’m going to the baseball game with the fam, which should be fun. I guess the last time I went was with the TT and GOG people, over a year ago. I’m not the biggest of baseball fans to be honest. It’s just so….LONG. And usually quite boring. And it doesn’t help that the Royals are so bad. Oh well, it should still be a fun time with my family, and it has been awhile since we’ve spent time together.

Oh gracious, I have no idea what to write. I’ve been staring at the screen for quite awhile now, and nothing is coming. You know what? I’m just going to put in some YouTube videos to fill up the space and call it a day. K? Thanks.

Oh, right. I’m doing that Blog Every Day August thing…which means I have to blog today at *checks clock* 10:29 at night.

Tonight’s sermon/service on suffering was amazing. There were songs in between the sermon, emphasizing each point, and it was just…amazing. I loved it so much.

Also, I took a long nap this afternoon, then read at church while the ‘rents were in Hannah Ministry Time Thingy, which was sweet.

Talked to Mel, Jake, and Michael about the randomest things, which always makes me happy. :)

This morning I had an interesting conversation with someone I’ve never really talked to…maybe I’ll disclose more information about that later, ahah.

Had two little mini-crises (is that the plural of crisis? wikipedia says yes…but…well, you know) today as well…and last night, too. It was whatev, to borrow a phrase from Becky.

Missing Maranatha people today. I was telling Jessica that I can sense we won’t keep in touch — which is a little sad. But hey, people come into your life for different reasons, and it’s ok not to stay in contact with everyone…right?

I need to make another RTBH list…

  • Snow. (…please come quickly)
  • The Great Gatsby
  • Jackets, sweaters
  • Vanilla-scented candles
  • Pillows
  • Checks that feature numbers significantly higher than expected :)
  • Naps
  • Songs worthy of being put on repeat
  • Twitter, even when it entices to grumble more than appropriate

I need to go to bed now.

Until tomottow…..oh my goodness yes, I really did accidentally just type that.

Good night.

I am at a complete loss as to what to write today.

Have you ever spent some time with someone, but not gotten to know them as much as you wish you could, and so you take the traits of a real or fictional person who has similar qualities, and transpose them onto the first person?

…I doubt that made any sense, and if it did, I’m probably the only one who would do it. I think I’ll move on.


  • Good books still unread
  • Friends who look past a myriad of faults
  • Years of happy times ahead, God willing (“It’s only a person of weak character who chooses to always be unhappy”)
  • Beautiful chords that I’d never played until today, thanks to piano lessons
  • Prose that isn’t precocious or ridiculous, just beautiful
  • The anti-shadow of headlight beams before a car appears
  • Washing/drying dishes at night to jazz
  • Doughnuts this morning…emphasis on the plurality of that word, haha
  • …piano solos by Stacey Kent’s piano player
  • Smiling even when you don’t want to…because it actually does make you feel better
  • The knowledge that I’ll see Hannah tomorrow!! YAY!
  • God is smarter, wiser, and infinitely more good than I

I have finally replaced the Bible I’ve had since 2005…with a Bible I’ve had since 2007. I wasn’t altogether willing to replace it, but seeing as it was being held together with tape, books in the back were falling out……..and the fact that I spilled hot coco on it last night, I figured it was time.

It’s for the best, I’m sure. I mean, I used to underline everything, and highlight it in garish colors. It’s a little embarrassing. It’s nice to start fresh….but I also dislike it. I knew where everything was in my old Bible. In fact, if I set it on it’s binding and let it open to where it wanted, it would easily fall to one of my favorite passages. I’ll miss that.

I finished watching Emma with my mom today. I really like how Emma’s character changes so much for the better. True, she’s not perfect in the end, but at the beginning she’s almost detestable. By the end she’s humbled and much more kind. And Mr. Knightly is a wonderful hero. He, too, has his faults, but is mostly virtuous.

There was a discussion on facebook about how romance novels were to be avoided, because it gives us false hope for the future. There were several people who said that these novels gave too high of expectations. Maybe they’re reading different books than I am — and if they’re referring to the likes of Twilight, then I agree: but something like Emma gives a fairly good portrayal of a relationship, I think. Alright, sure, I admit that she ends up with a rich, attractive husband…but she’s not perfect, and neither is he. They have parent’s and friend’s approval. They both grow for the better through the story, impart because of each others’ influence. …right? I don’t see why that is giving false expectations. Or, at least, not for a critical reader. Sure, if you’re the silly sort of girl who reads and expects that now a rich “sparkling” man should come sweep you off your feet, then you’re mistaken, but I like these stories.

Besides, let’s look at the romances in the Bible! Isaac and Rebecca, for example — Rebecca trusts a servant’s word and goes to marry this unknown man who just happens to turn out to be rich and handsome man! Or Solomon and his (presumably) first wife, depicted in the Song of Solomon — not every man is going to be so…lavish and poetic in his praise, ahaha. And Ruth? She went to Boaz (a rich older man!!) in the middle of the night (!!) and LAY AT HIS FEET to show that she wanted him to be her kinsman redeemer! And Esther? Who took a year to be “beautified” and then spent the night with the king before they were married? ……if we read this in a romance novel put in this day and age, we would call it scandalous. And these are just the examples I’ve thought of off the top of my head. OH! Jacob and Rachel! He worked FOURTEEN YEARS so that he could marry her. This is devotion.

So why is it that some people think today’s novels have high expectations that make us girls wait for the perfect guy? The Bible has huge expectations for guys — that they be poetic, rich, and work for fourteen years for us. Ok obviously I’m using hyperbole, but ahhh I don’t know. I enjoy a good romance….who doesn’t?! And, who’s to say I shouldn’t hold out for the perfect guy for me? I’m not saying he needs to be rich; that’s not important to me. I would feel ridiculous if he showered me with poems, and would be appalled if he thought I needed to “be prepared” for a year before I was presentable…but I have faith that God will bring me someone perfect for me — or no one at all.

I’m ok with this.

I’m more than ok, I’m content, even happy to wait.

But…also, I want to be married. I wish it didn’t, but this verse keeps floating to the top of my thoughts — “It is not good for man to be alone”.

I have faith in my Father, that He knows what’s best. I really do.

Here’s a quick summary of what I did at Maranatha! :) Maybe I’ll expand it some other time.

Saturday: Sick, breakfast, talking with Josh a lot (lack of guitar skills, talking about Alex and Collin) feeling alone, Grand Haven, Charly, Lebanon, Jena, beach, fireworks (drunk guy, me playing with rocks, sitting on the dock and swinging our feet), LATE NIGHT at the beach, singing under the stars – how could I forget to talk about that? That was the MAIN THING, haha.

Sunday: Leaving Josh and Jena alone, no breakfast, church – COLLIN SITS NEXT TO ME, so funny, first impression of Cami, guitar practice with Josh, “brunch”, hanging out in the commons with Jena, Josh, and Gary, Josh goes with Grandparents, Jena and I go to the beach, bye to Jena, no dinner, FIRST PRACTICE, with violin and guitar, awkwardness (sitting behind Vienna and Cami, then sitting with them – awkward conversation about Josh, hahaha), FIRST PERFORMANCE (screwed up violin part), Cami making hilarious faces at me, back to Lebanon, being a recluse, eating my salad from the day before, Vienna inviting me to the teen bonfire, Mike talking about perfect dates at the bonfire, walking back with Jaz, taking off make-up then Josh skipping LOST to take me to the grocery store, making it back just before midnight…did I go to bed, then? I think so. I remember feeling so desperately homesick, something I’d never felt before.

Monday: Woke up early-ish for teen worship practice. Started to really like Cami. Said goodbye to Mrs. Staley. My voice wasn’t doing too well, so I guzzled tea.  I got to sing on half of the songs!! I think we went back to Lebanon after that, and Vienna and Cami hung out at the beach, maybe? We probably started watching Lord of the Rings then – YES, we did, cause I only sort of kind of watched while Gary and them did, and then we restarted on Tuesday. Collin said to Cami and I that night “You two ladies are looking lovely this evening. CRACKED. ME. UP. The performance went really well, thank goodness. The service was a little strange – the one on the reformation. That’s when I started getting worried about the speaker. We were in the outside of the Tab, and were a little late in getting back on the stage. Then there was a practice afterwards (I couldn’t get I Sing the Mighty Power of God, and had a little temper tantrum (difficult to explain)…embarrassing, but got to hang out with Cami, and REALLY started to like her). Went back to Leb, tons of people had ice cream. and then we watched LOST! I sat with Vienna, I remember, it was hilarious how into it she gets. Josh said I was his LOST buddy. They talk through the entire thing. Love it — which is rare, cause I usually get annoyed when people talk during movies, haha.

Tuesday: No practice in the morning because of the Women’s Breakaway thing. I hung out with Josh for awhile, I think, watched some of LOTR, maybe? Watched Stomp The Yard and LOTR. Had a long devotion on the beach and it was EMPTY. Adored that. Had dinner with everyone right before practice…? For the first time? I think? Yes, I think that was the day that I got scared by a leaf, and Gary said “I was going to make a snide comment, but I figured I would be nice instead,” Then a good performance, I think. OH, this was the night when Cami smelled Vienna’s journal, which she said smelled like dog crap, hahaha. Loved that night. We laughed through the whole thing – at the speaker, more often than not. Got back to Lebanon, changed, went down to the beach, Cami and I. She was easy to talk to, but we didn’t HAVE to talk. Got eaten ALIVE by bugs. Then, we went to the staff party, and I was FREAKING EMBARRASSED by Josh, who started saying that I sent him mixed signals…IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. Classy. Josh got pushed into the pool. I bonded with Alyssa a little more. Watched LOST, and that was when the Collin incident happened, where he thought I was Vienna, hahaha. “You’re single, right?’ “Not for you I’m not!”

Wednesday: EARLY PRACTICE. Rainy day. Josh was late. We went in our PJ’s. I apologized to Collin. Josh’s music that day, which was cool. This was one of the best days ever, we ate breakfast, and Alex and Collin teased Cami for not cuddling with them. Then, once we got back, we watched LOTR, and then took naps, and then food was brought to us!! Amazing! I think we might’ve watched more LOTR, and then people separated and did stuff – like riding in an airplane. I just went to the beach, read a little, then went to dinner, the cookout? Where I sat with Vienna and Cami. …then straight to practice. The worship was AMAZING that night. Loved it.   Then we went back to Lebanon, changed, and had a devotion, I think? After, we went back, and there was that awkward moment where Alex wouldn’t let me sit by him and Alyssa because he was saving it for Mariah.

Thursday: Teen worship. Went to breakfast. Went to practice. Was so much fun, danced a lot with Cami to I have Decided to Follow Jesus. Had an extra practice for Sunday. Watched some of LOTR. I went to the beach. Read some. Got that compliment from the missionary that I didn’t know how to handle. Got to play piano in the Tab, which was AWESOME. Dinner…I don’t remember much. We went to practice, which was so/so, then all chilled at Lebanon for quite a while before we went to worship. Worship was a train wreck, I can’t remember why. OH. I did the prelude. And it was AWFUL. Then I just didn’t sing well. I have decided to follow Jesus Charly didn’t think went too well. He flung all the music off the stand at the end, balled it up and threw it at the pews. Came back, talked with Cami and Jaz for a long time. Then we moved out to the common room and talked. Loved this part, though I don’t remember everything we talked about. Finally, we went to get ice cream. Went back, talked some more. Anyway, eventually the Staley’s came. Said goodbye to Cami. We walked to the beach, talked, then talked in the back hallway.

Friday:  Breakfast by myself, Jess didn’t want to pay the outrageous amount of money. Then went to teen worship at the prayer tower = amazing. Then went down to the beach with the Staley’s, went to lunch with them. Went shopping…? I think? When we got back, Jess and I sat on the playground and talked a little bit. Then I went to dinner, and let them go to dinner by themselves. Ate dinner with Melissa. I went with Alyssa and played Four-square with Alex and Mike, while Collin and Vienna practiced music for the wedding the next day. Staley’s came back, and Jess and I decided to go to Meijer with Josh instead of going to the beach, which was fine.

Saturday: Slept in a little, went to breakfast and sat with Mrs. Sommers. Everyone went to the wedding. Went back to the beach, Jess and I swang, had a lovely conversation. The flag was red that day, choppy waters. Josh had to clean rooms. Ate with Jess, wanted to go to the bookstore but it was closed, we talked. We went to Taco Bell, Mr. Staley wouldn’t let me pay again. Came back, helped with cleaning. Offered to watch boys, did, went to dinner with Staleys. Jess and I went to the beach to take pictures. Came back. Watched LOST. Went to bed a little earlier than the rest.

Sunday: Got up early, went to practice, felt weird without Cami there. Didn’t have breakfast. Church was good, though I felt like the worship was a little lacking. Messed up violin AGAIN. Ugghh. Said goodbye to Collin. Thanked Charly. Packed the rest of my stuff up, said goodbye to Jaz, she asked me to come and visit her. Said goodbye to the people in the common room. Said goodbye to Vienna, sat in car, ate at that wonderful burger place, Butler’s Burgers? Slept a lot on the way back. Talked to Hannah. Home at 12 something?

So there you go! Probably a lot of detail you couldn’t care less about, haha, but I guess this is just my immediate memories…maybe I’ll make it more entertaining to read some other time.

P.S. I like traditions, but I’m not opposed to change, so…I’m going to stop signing my posts with “…lindy”. Kthxbai.

Hello again.

Last year at this time I was listening to Imogen Heap’s newest CD, Ellipse, for the first time…and in honor of her, one of my favorite artists of all time, I’m listening to it again!

This is the first track:

Splendid, isn’t it?

I heard that a girl I admired, though never met, died of cancer this morning. :( She was sweet, full of life, and did so much good while she was alive. I don’t know if she was a Christian or not, and it really troubles me. When you see someone who is so kind and does so much for the people around her, it’s easy to question God’s justice…and I’ll be honest, it’s hard for me to swallow. I trust God, and I recognize that His wisdom is much higher than mine, but sometimes my finite mind cries foul. If nothing else, though, this makes me more burdened for the souls that still have time left on this sin-soaked world.

Stupid Faulkner and Fitzgerald are poisoning my mind and affecting my writing style. Maybe it was due for a change, anyway.

I’m going to Kari’s house today to make peach jam!

Yesterday I had my first piano lesson…and realizing that I’ve got a lot of hard work ahead of me. :) I love my new teacher, though, she’s very fun, and knows exactly what I want and how to teach me to do it — many thanks, Lord. *smiles upward*.

Just had an experience with some slightly judgmental Christians, which really….irks me. Let’s just say I’m not a big fan of blanket sweep judgments.

Ok, well, sorry it’s such a short post today, maybe I’ll do some more Maranatha stories tomorrow. :) I might just put a much shorter summary of the days up tomorrow, since I already have that finished, and if you want to hear a particular story you can ask me to elaborate. :)

In honor of Esther, DFTBA! (Don’t Forget To Be Awesome)


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